I want to be what I used to be

I want to be what I used to be

See my friends,
how they are,
they enjoy all the trends,
and I am totally far.

I always stay apart,
from all the enjoyments,
I have lost my life's art,
even the joy and all other amusements.

I know it hurts alot,
but doesn't matter as it makes you happy,
at-least your heart has given me a plot,
where I am secured and never feel flappy.

I want to be what I used to be,
but the thing is how,
my heart is not letting my heart to flee,
I am feeling like a cow.

I wish once,
all my dreams come true,
and wish you to have a glance,
so that you come to know, how much I love you.